~The fate of Death Gods in MY HANDS~

Monday, June 1, 2009

For friends who understands me well enough, like Sharene, will know that I don't/can't get angry so easily(only in front of a lot of people). But these people will also know that I can be very hypocritical. I may be your "good" friend, but behind your backs, I will be "sharing" with other people who share the same view with me all the "bad" things you've done. This may not be a very nice thing, but worry not, I only "share" about facts. Furthermore, I don't do this to all my friends, in other words, enemies. Sharene may know that, I may have "hated" Clara for a period of time, but I did not do anything to worsen her relationship with her other friends. To put it simply, I don't just spread "real" rumours about a friend just because I hate him/her. I do this only to friends who have been pressing my buttons and betraying me.

I admit, I may have betrayed my friends' trust and hurt them on many occassions before but i deny the fact that I have never apologised to them for my wrong doings. I may seem indifferent, at first, if you've been pushing my limits, but after a period of time, I will start treating you indifferently as well. Soon, you'll find that I am treating you rather coldly and hanging out with you less. But, this does not occur all the time.

Things does change when I find that you'd betrayed my trust. I may ignore you for a day, a week or a year. I'm not sure myself. If I have to keep apologising for something I have not done wrong or keep giving in to you, it is definite that my heart and soul will harden against you and soon I may really hate you.

I currently have a friend whose name I shan't reveal who had been treating me like her best friend yet not her best friend. I guess many people already knew about it and are against her ignorant and proud attitude. I pray that this friend of mine would swallow her pride and change her attitude before my heart really harden. You have my blessings.

Amen.

slashed @ 3:01 AM
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