~The fate of Death Gods in MY HANDS~

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Why must I wear clothes pass down from my sister?
Why must I wear my sister's clothes?
Why can't you at least think about me?
Can't you at least think of my feelings?
Why must you hurt my feelings so badly?
Do you want to see me cry again?

I want to wear a dress in which I can raise my head and say that it is mine, my very own. But the thing is, I don't even have one. I remember last ROD, I have to wear my sister's dress. I don't like it, but I have no choice. Either wear or don't go. Next Friday I'll be going to Victoria Theatre-dress code: formal. I asked my mum to buy me a dress and she said that my sister has plenty. Yes. Plenty. Formal? no. last ROD I wore a extreme short and white colour with millions on little cherries and shiny with glitter dress. Was too short so i wore a jeans. I remembered like yestarday what happened. I cried coz then there was not a single formal dress. So, not to embarrass myself next friday, iasked my mum to buy me a dress. She said no. Said that i could wear my sister's dress. But my sister has none. none at all. So then I said if she doesn't wants to help me buy, i will go to This Fasion and buy it myself since it costs only $26 there and guess what she said, she said if i were to wear a dress from This Fasion, don't i ever there to say that she is my mother. SHe said the clothes there are too low clas. Then,get me a high class one,but she insists that i save money.I have enough of all this,isn't wearing my sister's clothes low class?My mother is too poor to even get me a dress.that she is so poor that i don't even have one single dress.that i have to always wear my sister's clothes.i just want one dress and I have saw one that i like in This Fasion that costs only $26. ain't i savinga lot then my sister whose dress can cost up to a hundred? my sister said that she needs a formal wear for her upcoming presentation and my mum brought her round Singapore's OG to look for it. My mum haven't even thought of bringing me aroud to take a look at the dress. does she know how much it hurts me. the comparison.Jie Min and Jeslyn both have a sister and they were never asked to wear their sister's clothe. but when i was younger, my clothes were passed down, from my sister to me.my violin bag's handle broke apart and i told my mum about it. i was expecting that she would buy me a new bag but she told me to carry it with the other handle. if she wants to save money that badly, why did she even give birth to me in the first place?

slashed @ 5:07 AM
_______________________________________________________________________