~The fate of Death Gods in MY HANDS~

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Today.... I'm feeling straight right down.... Firstly, I had my tuition at 10 this morning. I didn't spend my time wisely. Hard-earned cash just went right into the bin. 1 lesson costs $40 and today, I spend the whole 2 hours doing just 2 maths sums. Furthermore, I didn't do the maths sums by myself. I was spoonfed by my tutor. Basically, I spend almost the whole 2hrs complaining on how difficult the sum was.

I also had my violin lesson today. It was worse!! My friend's parent's has a store just next to my violin studio and I was carried away playing with her that I lost track of time. My teacher had to come out of the studio to look for me(she knows where I will be). Then, 'she' spend about 15mins trying to fix my violin. The string snapped the day before. The worst part was that the screw was jam and it took a long time to be fixed. Damn violin. This is what you call a middle-class violin. It costs my mum $126.50. Should have bought it at Yamaha instead. Market price for a 'normal' violin is about $150 and I bought it far below the market rice. Furthermore a full-size violin worths $180!!

I got scolded today... Today, today,today.... I hate today. I got scolded by my violin teacher. She said I was out of tune, she said I wasn't counting, she said I wasn't playing it right, she said I wasn't playing it well enough, she said, she said and she said. Probably she is in a bad mood today. Well, she can't really blame me for it. I get distracted every time I count, so I don't count and play it to roughly the beat I must play. Proffessional musicians do it this way, don't they? My grade 7 pianist cousin told me she don't count either. She told me she gets distracted everytime she counts too. My teacher should actually feel honoured having such a talented violinist. I can play proffessionally at my age and at my grade!! She should really control herself from scolding me because other students would be affected too. If she is in a bad mood when she is with me then her other students' after me would suffer too.(it is on a 1 teacher 1 student basis). Poor students. I pity you. You are going to get scolded because Miss Chan is not happy today, especially after teaching me.....

Today, I saw a ballet poster. A Ballet class leaflet to be exact. I feel evious of my friend today. I quit ballet after learning it for 6 years. Now, I suddenly feel an urge to learn ballet again and to finish it. I learn 6 years of ballet in my Pri school. It was a waste of money. Six years in grade two and vanessa learn for only 2 years and nowshe is in grade 3. Maybe I should continue my ballet studies. But now, it is up to my mum to make the decision, furthermore, I don't think she will allow it. Even if she does allow it, my dad won't let me. He is concern of every bit I am made into. He is afraid I'll be too stress. My mum wanted me to go into ballet and violin studies but my dad would only let me tae up 1, which I chose was violin. I was somehow bored of ballet after learning it for so many years. So I continue my violin studies.

Well, in a nutshell, I feel very stress today, put aside I have a lot tuition homework today and didn't even complete any tasks today.

Father, I hope that You will help me make the decision of to whether continue my ballet studies or not. In the mighty name of Jesus, amen.

Child prodigy,
Chieryl Heng

I have fought a good fight, I have finshed the race, I have kept the faith.
2Timothy 4:7

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